praying in the bathtub

dark purple satin dress

pinned and stitched to my skin

pearls may bless

my confidence

rip my head

and beat me dead

in a blood soaked gown

i’m here but how?

brought alive

by the words

whispered under your breath

lay beside me

and hold me

till i dance with death

i’m free

but i’m not living

i’m no debutante

I desire to be

something that you would want

so tell me

tell me i’m enough

tell me

tell me i’m enough

tell me

tell me i’m enough

tell me

tell me i’m enough

dark purple satin dress

you'll slip it right off my skin

tie my wrists

i’ll be your bitch

feelingless

do i fit in?

now

now

now (brought alive by the words whispered under your breath)

now (lay beside me and hold me till i dance with death)

i wanna be like quinn

face made of porcelain

wreck my fragile angel wings

you’re my boy

make my body sting

gut me open

cut me out

now i’m your puppet

come and talk through my mouth

introduce me to god

so i know how to pray

make me beg like your dog

so i know to behave