soft spot for a cradled memory

tied pink ribbons brought you to this place

holding your memory in my heart is so heavy and I’ll

always wear my shoes that

make me so much taller

because i’ve lost my favorite necklace

the one you said was so much cooler than yours

knowing i wouldn’t see you again after this rainy day i

i tell you now

i will cradle you with a frown

because i know you took me for granted

and forget my name

as the blue sky melts you down

well i know you remember my house

but the way you had me

the way you held my face

It’s all

floating away from me

i would’ve

loved you if you’d let me

in the present i’m lustful and so hopeless it’s upsetting

the way i claw at empty souls and forget who i am for others

all i wanted was your body

but you wanted me for flowers

you know why

tears hold me down

singing softly to myself in a blood fever cry

i am no longer what you want

heaven angels me peace

as my body melts in a misery

that makes me feel like i’m not worthy of love

from you

from you

from you

now

i cant seem to fall asleep

oh i keep crying

all i see

my face is melted

mirrored ease

i’d love myself

but i’ll never be you

never

i’ll never

mmm

mmmm mmm